The Push

I've been finding it hard lately to stay motivated.  Maybe it's the continuing cold weather here in Yokohama, or maybe it's the six month drag.  It's been about half a year since I first discovered Mr. Money Mustache and the entire concept of ERE, frugality, and sustainable living.  I had an idea of what it was ever since I had read George Ure's "How to live on under $10,000 per year" e-book, but had not really seen these ideas put into practice until discovering certain blogs.

I want to think that I have been doing pretty well following the path.  I recently paid off all of my debt.  I don't have a mortgage, and I have started to invest my money that was previously going into paying off my debts.  This should make me feel good but it seems like it has added another layer of stress now.

To be honest I don't exactly know what I am doing when it comes to investing.  And so far from what I have read on the internet nobody really knows what they are doing.  For every market theory out there there seems to be a reason that it just that, only a theory.  Whatever the reason maybe it seems that I am just as smart as the smartest mutual fund manager, and yet just as dumb as any pig waiting to be taken to slaughter.

That doesn't make me feel good when I am trying to bet my future potential earning and more or less key to my financial independence.  I'm not about ready to cut and run as after all it has only been about one month since I made that first fateful purchase of KO and JNJ stock.  These stocks have both made me money and lost me money during that period.  So I get it, you have to stick around.  But I need to get over this initial period of nothing.  I want things to happen now!  Now!  Now!  And realizing they will happen later, later, later is not always an easy reality to take in.